Monday, November 17, 2008

Ready, set... JUMP!!!

For those of you who are interested, I have indeed left my home. I've been living at my office for a week. Thank the stars for my boss, who has agreed to let me stay here until I find a place to live.

I am fine, I have a place to sleep, food, clothes, and a shower. I have books, I have music. I have my phone.

I haven't been hurt or threatened.

If you have called, emailed, texted, or IM'd me, and I have not answered, do not take it personal. I have not talked to anyone. I only just last night called my dad and told him the news.

I am exhausted. I don't feel like talking about it. I love and appreciate each and everyone of you, but right now, I just want to... rest.

I want to talk to and enjoy the time I can spend with my kids. I want to decide what to do about my future. I want to relax and read a couple of books and SLEEP...

Yes, I am worried, sad, lonely, angry, loaded down with guilt and anxiety. I feel in my heart I am doing the right thing, and that's the only thing that keeps my feet moving forward.

Fling a few wishes to the heavens for me, and I'll be back soon....

melodyann

21 comments:

Amy @ Milk Breath and Margaritas said...

Flinging some big ones honey!

I hope you are OK. Please keep us posted.

(I almost typed "homey" up there. heh.)

Used*to*be*me said...

Good for you! Keep your chin up and welcome to the first chapter of your new life! I'll be thinking of you. xoxo Me

~*~Jenni~*~ said...

This experience is only going to make you stronger, girl.

Keeping you in my thoughts and wishing there was something I could do to help!

Amalita (used to sleeping mommy) said...

I'm proud of you.

Sending you big hugs my dear, wishing I had a spare room nearby you to offer you while you get back on your feet.

Anonymous said...

turducula

MB said...

Change is good. You'll land on your feet in a much happier place. Take care of yourself.

the planet of janet said...

hugs.

and love.

Biddie said...

I am new here, came by via Burfica....
I wish that there was something that I could say to you to help you through this...Sending hugs your way, even though you don't know me.
Hope that wasn't creepy :)

sara said...

I am so, so, so, so proud of you...

charliee said...

Glad you are ok. This is just the beginning of a new life for you. Congratulation on having the guts to do it. Out thoughts and prayers are with you.

DraMa said...

Oh my! My best to you and prayers a plenty! Hang in there and build a new life for yourself:)

Burfica said...

oh girlie, prayers and thoughts flung to the heavens for you.

and big assed bear hugssss sent your way.

You know I've stalked you for a long long time, and I'll always be here my friend.

Barb said...

I'm sure you will find a place soon. Good luck to you.

Sheri said...

Thinking of you Mel. Please let me know if there is anything I can do. One day at a time and one step at a time......

Are you wearing Thanksgiving socks? I know those will cheer you up!

HUGS!!!!

Lu said...

hang in there mel...

ame i. said...

ALL of your feelings right now are valid and justified, but ESPECIALLY the knowledge (sp?) that you have done the right thing.
You gave the benefit of doubt and have taken more than enough shit. Don't second guess yourself

baseballmom said...

Good for you, girlfriend. YOu rock! And you still kick ass at word twist...

Alekx said...

It is a scary road to be out of a comfort zone no matter how crappy that comfort zone made you feel.

But in a while living your new life, you will have new comfort zones and look back thinking why the hell didn't I do this sooner

Good thoughts your way

OldHorsetailSnake said...

No turning back now, Mel. Congratulation on making the break.

R2K said...

: )

Bina said...

Oh my gosh. I am so sorry! If I lived near you, I would love to have you stay with me cause we would probably laugh our asses off, even at the bad things. I wish you well and hope things fall in to place for you. Stay safe and stay strong. I'm sending wishes your way!